I want to surround myself with people whose company I enjoy, whether as colleagues, friends or lovers.
I want to feel unimpeded by convention or social pressure in life. Morality (if it is a truly ethical point and not petty-minded) is a different matter, and will be observed.
I want to smash through the glass ceiling, elegantly.
So it’s been a while since I wrote. I guess it’s fair to say quite a bit has happened in the interval.
Firstly, while I still utterly support the coil as a method of contraception and generally love mine, it has been giving me a bit of grief lately.
Relationships exciting and painful, euphoric and challenging. You get to know someone much more deeply than most, you share with them, you imagine futures for yourselves, discuss how ugly your kids would be or realise you want different things and the dream gets squashed, along with the relationship more often than not.
Recently I have found myself thinking a lot about a former, very toxic relationship I was in. I have managed to deal with it in various ways from counselling and therapy sessions through to repressing memories through to building confidence in different ways over the years that have passed since, but sometimes it sort of jumps out at me, often when I least expect it and so am least equipped to face it.
This was never the post I planned on leading with when I set up this blog, but within a day of configuring Being Eos, this event occurred (entirely coincidentally). If I’m being honest about my love life on here, then this is the natural place to start.